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Christy Smith

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Christy Smith last won the day on July 18 2018

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  1. MCF- You kill me! That was hilarious Leanna- According to my kids carp is a cuss word...but I think they listened to my mom too much who thought butt was a cuss word too... :-) They finally quit chewing me out for saying it when I explained over and over it wasn't considered a cuss word. They about had a cow when Ash use to call batman, batdam ...teeheehee Thanks Ami, your a good reminderer :-)
  2. why would someone with a BLA, no dhea replacements, and low testosterone get a 5 oclock shadow everyday?
  3. Frank Drackman is a nut case It is scary that he is touching anybody in any way shape or form. I'm now wondering how many *so called* doctors have had that attitude when they saw me. I read a small peice of his blog until I was grossed out. Lets just say I sure hope none of that happened when I was intubated when I was AWAKE!
  4. You crack me up. I really appreciate that right now.

    Christy

  5. I have especially been thinking (sometimes a lot) about suicide after the last surgery. I have of course had my days of being depressed to the point of being sick, but never as bad as this. I am depressed about the last years of my life wasted, my body, my hair, my face...you name it, and then I'm depressed for thinking that way. I think one thing that makes me so depressed is the pain now. The pain is uncontrollable and I hate living like this. I know my hormones are messed up and until they are straightened out I will not get back to myself. Nick, Funny you should mention the way people look on the street and comments others can make about them, because that was one of the worst things when this all started for me to deal with. I was always a petite person... the only one that could do the splits, cartwheels etc, the grand champion of the grade school at jump-roping (quit laughing :-) life was good and so was my body. Then after 30 + years of being that way I suddenly gain 100+ pounds and I got lost, drown if you will somewhere down inside of it. I started getting the snorting teenagers, the looks, the comments because I couldn't hold my last baby, the comments from family that I needed to walk every night. Really? I never thought of that. I was rather enjoying the blubber, thanks. All when just before I went to the gym 3-4 days a week for 1 1/2-2 hours of aroebics and weights. It's not like I asked for this. I have been fortunate not to have to test long or go through some of the trouble that some of you have with doctors not believing or listening yet I've still been so depressed that I thought daily of the easiest way to get out of hell. Not many times have I brought up my depression with people, with the exception of a few times in my blog and a couple of close friends. I don't tell Robert anything anymore after screaming at him "you have no idea how it feels to want to die every f-ing day of your life, and knowing you can't because of your children" That is honestly the 1 and only thing that has kept me here. I know it probably scared him but he says nothing, not one damn thing about it. At least a simple "I'm sorry you are feeling that way to aknowledge it would help. I feel like the comedians that attempt or succeed in suicide that everyone says "they had to have been happy as funny as they were"....not saying that I'm funny, just that people hide it well and cover their real feelings for others when they are dying inside. All I know is that I feel like I'm being punished for something but I have no idea what or when the nightmare will end.
  6. Well now see that was my whole problem right there! If the neuro surgeon would have been digging in my belly for that dumb pituitary I wouldn't have had to have the adrenal surgeon miss his mark when he should have been digging in my brain! No wonder it didn't work!
  7. Christy Smith

    blog blog blog

    Well now that's weird....it posted twice sorry bout that
  8. Christy Smith

    blog blog blog

    Hey what about me??? I'm still blogging I didn't abandon you guys!
  9. I'm sorry you are in so much pain. I can sympathize with you right now. That steroid shot they gave me did nothing but give me an awful headache and now that I took the prednisone...guess what here it comes again.
  10. Christy Smith

    Survey Says

    my comments never showed up...hmmm
  11. Christy Smith

    Survey Says

    you better believe I'm a swiper...no it was sent to me in email so I just put it on the blog instead of emailing it to everyone. Yes I think it would be really fun to do something similar ....ohhhhh wait a minute I have another I need to go find tonight on a homeschooling site....I'll put it on my blog for swiping!
  12. Christy Smith

    Survey Says

    Well in Robert's case since he is capricorn too...I would say the other half is Jackass, but actually about 3/4 of the time he is a whole complete one ....ummm sooo I dunno
  13. *snicker* I understand sorry bout asking
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