Well in less than 24 hours I'll be in the DC area, that is if Hurricane Dennis don't interfer. I'm nervous, but also excited. Not sure what to expect, Mary O helped a lot calming me down. I pray they find some answers. When tropical storm Cindy stormed through the area this week, my son had some major damage to his house, now my daughter is in Tampa, and Dennis is the first big storm that has hit Florida since shemoved there, at least she only on the edge of this one. My sister is now batteling
I lost a lot of weight. I mean a lot. For me. I gotta find a scale now. I wanna know.Im fitting into things that never fit. And i feel lighter. Things are so loose theyre falling off. I hope it isnt just wishful thinking!Other than that im crazy this week.
Well I went in to see the on call doc last week, he was great he even called me saterday to check on me. I had the corodid ultrasound and I am wondering what it said because he ordered a MRA and I had that done yesterday. He asked me if I have ever had a neck injury or chiropractic work done recently, which I have. I don't think that could be the problem. He did say I might have a small tear in my corodid artery. I guess the MRA is a map of all the blood vessels in the neck and brain. I have no
Sheesh, I feel like an invalid. My carpal tunnel is back with a vengeance, so I'm wearing the big braces again - look terrific in short sleeve shirts! It's also very hard to type, to do the computer, to do anything.Besides that, I got some kind of eye infection or something. At first, I thought it was something in my eye because only one quadrant was hurting and red, but it spread to the whole eyeball.It might be from the newest contact lens solution I bought. When I looked at the label, it
Well it's next sunday the 10th that I head to NIH. I'm getting nervous. I wish I knew what to expect. I know to check in then it's a total mystery of what to expect. I need to start making a list of the lists of things I need to do. I was standing in line at the supermarket this evening and it hit me, this time next week I'll be at NIH. This is really not what I had in mind for a vacation this year, but I'm still excited about going. There's the fear that they will tell me that there's nothing
Well, not the first urine test I turned in, but the first results I have received. My PCP doc mailed me a copy of the second UFC I turned in. I only got results for the cortisol and creatinine, not the 17-hydroxysteroid? I have no clue about these tests, obviously. It was a normal result. 5.4mg I'll be really embarrassed if all of my tests come back not just normal but low normal. The creatinine test came back as low, but that stands to reason since I have some kidney damage (no idea why) a
Sorry about the title. I'm 50 years old and been on the dating scene for 10 years now. I still can't figure it out. I"m sitting here at my computer bemoaning my situation, and on the other hand shaking my head at my reaction. There's a lot of background to this story. In the beginning I was a skinny, shy 14 year old in a new school. John was a shy, geeky looking 14 year old new to the school also. We became friends, but he ran with a wild crowd and I was with the good girls group. His family lef
THE OFFSPRING LYRICS"Gotta Get Away"I'm getting edgy all the timeThere's someone around me just a step behindIt's kinda scary the , the shape I'm inThe walls are shakin'and they' re closing inToo fast or a bit too slowI'm paranoid of people and it's starting to showThere' s one guy that I can't shakeOver my shoulder is a big mistakeSitting on the bedOr lying wide awakeThere's demons in my headAnd it's more than I can takeI think I'm on a rollBut I think it's kinda weakSaying all I know isI gotta
Didn't I warn ya not to read this here foggy bloggy?Ah man. I have done it now. I've emoted 100% and now I feel scared. What would I be like without cushings? Would I be every bit as f*ed up as I am now? I can't help thinking I would be worse. Cushing's has taught me much. Sometimes I scare me
I am feeling very scared right now. I went to a ER night before last and was having another TIA. They say this is a major warning of a big stroke. I had left arm numbness again today but did not go in. I am also having weird chest pain but am too afraid to go to the ER. I am thinking maybe it's just anxiety and it will go away. I have taken xanax and lots of ibuprofin hopiing it will go away. If not I will go in but like I said I am really scared. I am afraid it may be a pulmonary embolism, mayb
Experimenting with Blog categories ALANIS MORISSETTE LYRICS"So Unsexy"Oh these little rejections how they add up quicklyOne small sideways look and I feel so ungood......I can feel so unsexy for someone so beautifulSo unloved for someone so fineI can feel so boring for someone so interestingSo ignorant for someone of sound mindOh these little protections how they fail to serve meOne forgotten phone call and I'm deflatedOh these little defenses how they fail to comfort meYour hand pulling away a
Ah was talking to some people about our mutual pet's deaths. Not appropriate to pos this there, but I know at least one of you I was posting with felt guilty about having to make the decision to end your pet's life. I did too sooo much so I wanted to share this poem it's not the greatest but from the heart. Just thought the part about letting go of the guilt might make you feel so not alone.I uploaded some pics to my album of my Shelli cat. The one on her back in on her memorial urn [for lack of
I broke down and went to the ER on Monday. All I could do was lay down and cry. It was the third day of it and much worse than my normal daily headache. I didn't realize they would only give me morphine and dilaudid (sp?), I thought they could give me a shot of something that would make it go away. Neither shot they gave me did much good, oh the morphine looped me - but I was still in a great deal of pain. The ER doc wanted to admit me for pain management, but I hate that 'high' feeling so
Ummm either a cold or infection. I have some skin infections going on, so I decided to go ahead and take some Augmentin. I don't take many antibitoics these days as I'm so resistent and trying to build up their effacy again for future kidney infections.Anyways, I'm so doped up. It used to be that pain killers and the like hardly affected me, in the early days of cushings. Now, I can't even tolerate a codeine 3 without being completely incapacitated mentally and physically. Makes my muscles weak
Don't read this if you're animal is dying or recently deceased.Got Shelli's box today. It is about 5in X 4in. or so. It is solid mahogany wood very dark, very nice. Gold plate on top says SHELLI, Momma's Angel, 2002 - 5-31-05And has a calico cat angel with wings on top. I had to unscrew the bottom to get her cremains inside. First time I looked at what they were. I wrapped them in a portion of her pink blankie. I can't stand the thought of her in just a plastic bag ack. I'm hopeless.This was har
So I stole this from MaryO, who stole it from Christy :DA is for age- 33B is for booze- Amaretto SoursC is for Career or major- Writer Wanna BeD is for dad's name- Ed, RIPE is for essential items to bring on a trip - Cell phone and ah nail polish. I can never sleep well on trips, so I polish my nailsF is for favorite album at the moment- Darryl Worley's self titledH is for hometown- I don't really have one but I love where I live in Oregon nowI is for instruments you play- Ummm yeah. None really
So, I copied this from Christy's Blog. I hope she forgives me!Of course, I did replace with my answers, not hers :)Replace answers with your own :)A is for age- Over the Hill!B is for booze- Black (or white) Russian C is for Career or major- Let's see how does that go...taxi, chef, maid, doctor, teacher, musician, web designer, SURVIVOR!D is for dad's name- Daddy to me, Grandpa to my son, was Frank to othersE is for essential items to bring on a trip - computer and peripherals!F is for favor
I figured it out. It isnt a cat that screams loud and pees here and there... it's really an act of terrorism by some foreign faction to drive me crazy.
Well, I made it through another week. My children are healthy, I'm still employed, and my cats love me. I'm afraid, it seems that I live in constant fear. I'm afraid of not paying my bills, I'm afraid of losing my house. I'm afraid I'll die alone. I'm afraid my friends will discover that I'm not worthy and leave me. I'm afraid that my sisters will disown me. About losing the house I know when that started. Last summer, one Sunday morning I was sitting at the computer, online, watching the cat wa
