Feeling slightly better today, although did wake up at 4am...can't sleep...Now 5:17am and still posting here...what am I like! I know I will regret this later and be thoroughly exhausted...OK, time to get a few winks in before the crew wake up in an hour - can hear moving upstairs, so better get them in quick! zzzzzzzzzzzz
Its been a very rough week or so. So much seems to be going on in my life that my body is finding it hard to cope with everything right now. I think that is a big factor in why I have been feeling so rough hence the visit to the endo yesterday. Moving house was difficult and a big culture shock although there were major improvements in some areas like being with other people again and not feeling so isolated. Not having any spare money is hard - we still don't go out and I have rented an allotme
I gave the blog thing a rest for about a month but I am ready to blog again till I'm blue in the face... Its been a bit of a mad week this week and I need to get some writing done. I'll talk more about it later...need to get dinner ready for the mad clan who are pullin gup on the doorstep as I type!!!
OK, I am going to try an experiment here...hoping it works and gives me motivation. Seems the most ideal thing for me seeing as though I log on every day. Time to get focused on my diet and exercise and see if I am doinf anything wrong, could be doing more or if it is these damn meds restricting my weight loss. So here we go, a weekly weigh in and measurement chart and a daily list of what I eat and drink.Week 1:Measurements: Chest - 49"; waist - 46"; hips - 46"; Left knee - 18"; Left Thigh - 28
It was the first time in a long, long while that I have been able to drink and boy am I paying for it this morning. Had a few glasses of wine last night and stubled to bed in a drunken stupour - but it felt great!! I have been teetotal for over 3 years now and could not touch a drop which was horrible at Christmas and on special occasions. It was good to just let go again. Feel like alot of normal things are happening now.Went to Mums yesterday and helped to sort out our room. It should look OK
Don't know where my energy came from today but I have blitzed my house - feel shattered now. Harry and I have been thinking about Halloween today and we have been making up stories and plays about a Witch - it amazes me just how creative he is at 4 - he loves Halloween - its not really that big over here although as we have Asda here which is part of Walmart they sell some fantastic and cheap Halloween costumes and accessories. We brought some spiders web with these plastic spiders that I keep f
It was a great start to today - I read Linda's post about Allison finally getting her diagnosis and heading for surgery. I love reading when things finally go right!I've been a busy bee today, still packing...never ending and Harry has been helping today which was quite funny to watch! Getting through tons of washing and housework in preparation. Started to get the jitters a bit though - guess its the thought of going back to Mum's, will it be OK, will we get on, will my marriage survive it...lo
Was quite happy yesterday as I checked my bank account had had two tax credits in there for a teax rebate, I am assuming. Not a huge sum but it will pay for the lorry when we move. I have been busy moving boxes today and trying to get some things downstairs. Looks like we have to put the move back a couple of days though as Steve can't get the time off, which is a shame. Harry and I made some dinosaur cookies today. I also got him a couple of books to learn numbers and the alphabet - they are re
Well, my last ever boot sale today...phew!! Did it on my own, 6:30am down with the car loaded to bursting point. Smashed our selling record - got chatted up by a 71yr old and made lots of friends in the process - very fun day. Stress free without the clan with me and ended up making twice the money I would if they were with me - typical!! Must be the gemini gift of the gab...glad to see its returning again after all these months of living like a hermit! Sold lots of Harry's baby bits - it was lo
Thank god its Friday...although lack of money has dictated that I have to do yet another car boot sale on Sunday...gggrrrrrr...just priced up the last of my stuff - hope to make enough for the week and to pay a bit towards the lorry for our move. Steve and I both agreed that we are now desperate to get moving - we are both going stir crazy and need to finally say goodbye to the stress and move on to new and better things...here's hoping. Had a letter through yesterday about my next MRI appointme
Went to the park today - need to start getting out more and walking so ended up going into town and then took Harry to the park. It is a lovely park but notorious for drunks and drug users - when we went down th epark a week ago we overheard a young couple say they had spotted used needles in the public toilet. Harry and I passed a young couple today who were obviously drunk and it was only 10:30am - makes me so angry that Tony Blair wants to increase drinking hours to 24hrs. I love taking Harry
Harry and I have had a day of fun painting fishies and making octopusses (didn't get time yesterday!), squids and such. We painted a big sea scene and then pasted some shiny fish and then made some legs and heads for the octo and squid - got very messy and we were both covered in paint but great stress relief! Then onto the life size Octopuss made out of stuffed socks and a hoop covered in foil - managed to make a harness so he can wear it - It was huge - I was never good at home ec. but he love
The strain of the last few weeks started to show on Steve last night. I think we have both just had enough. He is so good though, he lets me rant and rave and moan and groan and he doesn't say much - he is very calm but last night the cracks showed. He isn't sleeping too well either, I feel so sad for him. He is my rock and my star and he keeps me sane in my insane little World. Together we have been through so much hell but have still stuck together, I can't name too many people that have had o
We were up at 5:30 this mornind and out of the door at 6:30 -just got back, its 3:00pm and I am exhausted. We didn't even sell that much - managed to sell Harry's pram, a few clothes and some videos, not much else - made about ?50 so just have enough for a bit of shopping, pay for my electricity and some petrol. We really can't go on like this. A nice thing happened though, a young lad gave Harry a whole stack of reading books that they couldn't sell - Harry is in his element.Off to cook a sunda
Yesterday I had a letter from our council saying our next door neighbours planning proposal for a 2-storey 19 ft extension to the rear of their property has been granted. We have been fighting this application for a year and on their 3rd attempt they have been successful. I am so gutted as it means that building work will take place whilst we are trying to sell our house for the bankruptcy - it could jeopardise our having the equity available to pay of our debts and determine how long our bankru
Nothing much happening today. The weather has been awful, bucketing down. The Sun is just starting to come out. Hope its a nice day though as my friend gets married today. My toe has been killing me. My op isn't until November 10th but it is so painful right now, even the slightest knock makes me wince in pain...gggrrrr...be so glad when this toe is sorted out. Can't quite believe I have had to endure these problems for 2 years now. This will be my 4th op to sort it out - ridiculous.
Experienced a few more episodes like a couple of days ago after walking Harry to nursery. My fingers started ballooning up, I felt incredibly light headed and the facial plethora was running riot - oh, and my lips went numb!! What the hell is going on...checked my blood sugars on the good advice of Doctor Christy...lol! and it was within normal range. I think I will give it another week or so with walking Harry to school. It may well be that my body is saying...whoa...exercise, what the bloody h
Trying to give myself a boost today. I felt so down in the dumps yesterday evening and I need to kick myself back in line. No negative thoughts!!I wrote down everything I felt last night and will leave it a few days before reading it. After watching this mornings City Hospital with a woman that had Pit surgery for Acromegaly, I started examining my hands and feet. They balloned in size considerably when I got cushings but I never verbally got an answer on what my growth hormone was. I just get t
Ggggrrrr....woke up feeling rough again - what's going on! , OK, so I overslept and hour and took my meds late but still...lol! No, seriously, my stomach probs are still going on and that damn lump in the side of my neck is back again, I'm counting down the days to our move but think the stress is hitting me but I am trying to keep it all inside. The closer it gets, the sadder I get about moving but the happier I get about starting over - its a bit euphoric at times! Well, I better get off m
I have increased my hydrocortisone back up to 15mg (10mg in the morning and 5mg midday) and in two days I have to admit I have more energy. I am not so exhausted, I am still tired but not to the point that I feel I could sleep there and then. I have come to the point where I think I have to stop pushing myself beyond what my body is ready for. I think I need to give it a bit more time before I start to wean again. I am still interested in whether the low thyroid is playing a big part in some of
Firstly I want to send my love to all those that were affected by 9/11, four years ago...What a night I have had - I was sick as a dog, I thought I was going to collapse. Feeling much better this morning, but my breathing was very shallow last night. It has been humid here so it was a case of throwing open all of the windows (scared of Daddy long legs, you see - do you get those in the States - big spider like flying insects...ggggrrrrr...hate them). Ended up being really ill, sitting on my bath
God I feel so rough today. I just feel exhausted, so physically exhausted. My cheeks are burning and feel so hard and I just don't look myself, I look ill. I can't even manage a walk to the park right now without feeling exhausted and my fingers swelling up like ballons. It's horrible. I just want to crawl into bed and hide away for a while.
Harry starts back at nursery today.I am going to pop down to the employment agencies and see if I can get a temporary night job to raise the extra cash we need. Steve is off with a bad back right now, poor thing...men's illnesses are always a 100 times worse! Still packing...slowly getting there, thought we didn't have much but boy was I wrong.Got a bit emotional last night for no reason other then I had watched some drama on TV. Thinking alot about the last 4 years especially about Harry's prob
Haven't posted here for a few days, quite a few things going on. Mum has stayed over for a few days and we have been discussing the move. Will be getting the ball rolling shortly. Just need to start packing and writing to a few people. Need to register with new Docs etc when we move too. Mums house a smaller than ours but I thinks we'll do OK. There is so much to do in the local vicinity and lots of well paid jobs too, so we are seeing this as a very positive step now. I just need to do some ext
Well, I've ordered the boxes, should arrive any day now. Need to start measuring up my furniture. Mum has an old and knacked sofa, so we are using our one. We have some very large reclaimed furniture which I am concerned will not fit, a 7ft pine table with big carver chairs and a 7ft dresser - my Mums house isn't that big! We said the table will take up most of the living room. Our bed is this huge king size reclaimed pine sled bed as well. Not sure if we will be able to fit that in. We have a s
