well I have conseeded to go to pain management and the thought of that makes me feel like i am giving up but it hurts with every breathe much less with every step I also conseeded to order thew power chair it really making feel like giving up. I guess i am getting angry and i guesss that a partof it but I have lost my fight and that what scares me as long as i had the fight I never though of giving upn and now when i going to sleep i am praying not to wake up and that scares me I am still trying because i know Ken and the kids need me so this is the reason I fighting still and the reason I going to go to pain mangenment and then maybe if i can sleep things will look better. I sure hop so kandy