I having my first moment of quiet since the news from the doctor yesterday part of me wants to be strong and part of me wants to break down it just been so hard the last few months and it seems like everyday there is something i have to deal with. I did go today for my botox injections formy headahesa nd that a postive thing I was not wanting to deal with them and the surgery on tuesday The docttor has said it going to be a rough and painful surgery on me so i am trying to work myself up witha good atttide but am very worrired about certain things I hoping and praying the tumor will not be cancer and hopefully I will feel better after the surgery I feel i need someone to talk to about my fears but am unsure of who that should be. well i getting tired and hurrting so i say good bye for now kandy