Its 2:45am and I have been up since 1:15 with a bad tummy. I feel so rough and my head is banging. Just trying to rehydrate myself and I am so tired, I just want to sleep, but the pains are so bad.

Took loads of photos on my new camera yesterday. Its my 1st digitial camera and I must admit when you see photos of yourself it gives a different perspective. I was saddened to see what I look like. I don't like how I look at all. I just want to be off of these steroids and free of this disease.

My stomache still resembles a large beach ball - it is such an odd shape and look. My cheeks are bright red and my face is still very round...has Cushings gone...I am really having my doubts lately. I sometimes wonder if they do choose the right route here in keeping the pit gland intact. Would I have a better chance if they had removed the left side as they said they would. Would this prevent further re-growth. I believe so...well roll on the 18th May and I'll know for sure. The only thing I hate is that my endo said my initial blood tests post-op looked good, this is what happened last time round and I still feel like crap this time round.