So for the last 14 years or so I've been dealing with health issues that I've had no idea where they came from or what was causing them. It started out when I was around 22 with mild headaches which really didn't bother me at the time because I could pop a few Tylenol and take care of it.
Then, by the time I was 30 it slowly progressed into mild depression and anxiety....Now, I had never been depressed as a teen or in my early 20's so this was new to me....I attributed this "new issue" as a symptom of the bad relationship I had just gotten out of . (Thank You Mitch!!!) But no, it was not Mitch's fault....well, at least the depression and the anxiety was not his DIRECT fault. Right around this time I also started to develope strange dizzy spells....when I got up, when I sat down, when I walked....it was just very strange. So I went to my doctor and asked for an explanation on just what the hell was wrong with me. Bless her cotton pick'n heart....she had no idea either...But she was also quick to blame Mitch....So, she did what every good Primary Care Physician would do and gave me a prescription for anti-depressants and sent me on my merry way.
Well, The dizzy spells got worse.....the depression went away...(Actually, it was just masked by the Paxil I was on.) and then one day, I just blacked out while getting ready for work....That scared the living bee-jesus out of me. So I went to see a bevy of specialists....a cardiologist....(could find nothing wrong with my ticker)....a neurologist.....(could find nothing wrong with the electrical make-up in my brain).....a pulmonologist.....(could find nothing wrong with my lungs).....a hematologist.....(could find nothing wrong with my blood except that I was a little anemic....so he gave me some iron pills)...by this time I was going crazy. I really started to think that I was just plain ole' nuts. But, the one specialist I never went to see was an Endocrinologist.
Well, as it turned out, my strange symptoms kept on developing. (By this time I was in my early 30's)....the funny "hump" on the base of my neck.....the chronic fatigue....the joint pain....the god awful bruises I would get from the kids when they gave me hugs....I became borderline diabetic.....the depression got worse....(And Mitch had not been in my life for a good 3 years now so I couldn't blame it on him)...WTF... What the hell is wrong with me???
Again, I dragged my happy A$$ to the doctor and this time he ordered another slew of tests....they came back with the same results....THERE'S NOTHIING WRONG WITH YOU.....except you do have fibromyalgia (GREAT).....I'm becoming arthritic at an early age. I had an existential melt-down...Well...here's more Paxil for you....and by the way, try some yoja.
Well....Let me tell you, Paxil can only do so much...and then you basically become imune to it......I was a watering pot one day, or a raving lunatic the next.....Well, why don't you try some Lexapro...okay....that didn't work either....it just made me gain weight.....Jesus, Joseph & Mary....just what I need....another "Issue"
Okay God....what is wrong with me? I asked one day this past October....and his answer came in the way of a TV Documentary on the National Geographic Channel....(The Science of Obesity)....I was bored....and depressed...so I watched what I thought was a show on Sumo Wrestlers until.....The final segment of the show talked about a disease called Cushing's....and God Almighty.....it mentioned EVERY SYMPTOM I had been dealing with for the past 14 years!!! BLOODY HELL! I now have a name for what's wrong with me! And its CUSHING'S Disease.
So...what happened next?
You'll have to read the next blog entry.