I am now officially on disability and am kind of sad about it. I will miss my collegues and my students. That 4th TIA was the deciding factor. I have been told the diagnosis is Cushing's Syndrome until we have more biochemical evidence for Cushing's Disease. I do have a pituitary tumor. I just hope it will show itself soon, so I can have surgery and get on with my life. Well at least I'll be here for my kids this school year. They need me right now. I feel like I have been absent from my family even though I really haven't. I had to save my energy for work. Now I can save it for them.It has now been 1 year since my mom died and I miss her so much. I still want to pick up the phone. I hope I don't put my kids through that kind of pain for many, many, many years.