Sorry I didn't finish my entry last night, but I ended up getting sick. Last night I was sitting here typing in the last entry and wham, I got so hot~felt like I was on fire on my insides and then this wave of nausea came over me and my mouth started watering and I knew I was going to be sick. I prayed to the porcelain God for about 30 minutes and it was horrible because the only thing in my belly was a sip of tea I had drank 30 minutes before. I was so tempted to drink some water so I'd have something in my stomach instead of the acid; it was so gross. Anyways, I finally crawled into bed around 4am and didn't get up until noon. Joseph knew I wasn't feeling good; so like a good fiance, he let me sleep in. When I finally got up; I noticed my left ear hurting. I guess I have an ear infection on top of my other aches and pains as if they aren't enough. I have been hurting all morning long but didn't want to take a pain pill b/c I thought maybe that is what made me sick last night. I finally had to take one about 30 mnutes ago. I guess I'll find out here in a few if that's what's causing me to be nauseated. Okay, on to my story and how all this started.

I've had aches and pains for years now, but nothing I couldn't handle. I noticed a year or so ago that when I would be doing household chores that I would tire easily and just hurt. I've always been a strong person and so this bothered me a great deal. I have 3 kids to take care of so there's always lots of stuff to be done around here. Most of the time I just cannot finish what I start. I hurt too bad. Well, then came the bouts of nausea. On again Off again. It will hit me and last for awhile and then just go away. I never have puked when feeling nauseas except for last night. The nausea has been happening for about the last 2 years off and on. I have recurring headaches; I was diagnosed with migraines about 3 years ago, and I had a few, but now I don't have the migraines, just headaches alot. I get dizzy and light-headed almost everyday. Sometimes my ears will feel like they are plugged up and my head feels full of pressure and I can't hear for about a min or so and then it goes away. I am concerned about this and have not mentioned it to my doctor yet. I will tell him, but I just switched doctors and when I went last week I was just focused on my belly pains. I have also had palpitations and chest pains for quite some time now. I believe I started noticing it when I was pretty young and it has followed me through the years. Heart disease runs in my family and so I'm also concerned about this. My recent trip to the doctor happened because on July 6 I started having sharp pains in my lower abdomen below my c-section scar. I didn't think much about it because I always have aches and pains, but there is something not right about this episode of pain. It has lasted for days now and is an everyday thing. My mom told me to go to the doctor so I went July 11 and they set me up with a gall bladder ultrasound and a pelvic ultrasound. I had both done on Friday the 13th and am now playing the wating game for the results. My pain is especially bad when gas is forming. It gets better when it passes, but is still there. One night I was sleeping and this excruciating pain woke me up. It felt like it was in my right ovary and it felt as if someone was stabbing me; it lasted about 5 minutes and then subsided. After that; I knew my mom was right and I needed to go. I guess that's about it for now. Oh wait one more thing; for about the last year I itch. My skin itches sometimes really bad and I thought it was allergies, but when I take Benadryl or put itch cream on it doesn't help it at all. I have no idea what this could be, but I've read that when your kidneys are failing you can have itchy skin. I'm hoping this is not what is happening. I guess if the ultrasounds don't show anything I'll be having more tests to figure out what is wrong with me. I feel broken and I just want to be fixed.

I'm glad I found this website; there is alot of informative articles and helpful forums. There seems to be sincere people here who are going through similar situations and that is comforting to me to know that I am not the only one having issues with my body that I thought was so healthy. I want to live to raise my children and hopefully one day have at least one more child with Joseph. I was married for 5 years to a man who didn't appreciate what I had to offer and who cared more about drinking and drugs than me and the kids; so needless to say we got divorced. I had my tubes tied when I had my third child because I knew I would end up pregnant again if I didn't and that wasn't something I wanted with him. After that I was ready to give up on men and then I met Joseph. He treats me so good and my kids love him so much. He is just awesome and I am so grateful to have met him. Sometimes I have to pinch myself to make sure I'm not just dreaming that I met the most perfect man! He's real though and I couldn't be happier; well, minus the aches and pains and illnesses, but all that doesn't seem so bad since Joseph is so understanding and takes care of me when I fall ill. Okay that's all I have to say for now, but I'll write again later. Pray for me. I will keep everyone on here in my prayers also. God Bless!