I just can't find any answers of where I am, what I should expect or the best Doctors, so I will blog I guess.

I think that the more I think about what can be the matter and not knowing which way to go just depresses me. I know there is a lots of people a lots worst than me and I pray that they will find the help they need. I just wish I could understand me and then maybe I could help others too. I know God has left me here for a reason and a purpose because I tried to leave this body when I had a second Heart Attack but God told me "I am not Finished with you" and I was back in my body. So now I am here and he will work all of it out.