The loneliness I feel right now is so overwhelming and I do hate feeling sad like this. I am usually quite positive externally and try my best not to project my inner feelings on others but of late its getting hard. I have a day curve on Tuesday but don't see my endo until December. I am just losing faith in everything. Time for a re-evauation I think. I need to shake this off and focus.
I even applied for a fantastic job at a local Publishers. Fit me to a tee. They invited me to interview and sent me the full job spec. When I received it I discovered I would have to manage people...I froze...in a World without Cushings, I would have jumped at the opportunity and gone to the interview with gusto...however I emailed personnel and made up an excuse that I couldn't attend the interview...the person I once was has gone and that made me incredibly sad.