God I feel so rough today. I just feel exhausted, so physically exhausted. My cheeks are burning and feel so hard and I just don't look myself, I look ill. I can't even manage a walk to the park right now without feeling exhausted and my fingers swelling up like ballons. It's horrible. I just want to crawl into bed and hide away for a while.
Harry starts back at nursery today.I am going to pop down to the employment agencies and see if I can get a temporary night job to raise the extra cash we need. Steve is off with a bad back right now, poor thing...men's illnesses are always a 100 times worse! Still packing...slowly getting there, thought we didn't have much but boy was I wrong.Got a bit emotional last night for no reason other then I had watched some drama on TV. Thinking alot about the last 4 years especially about Harry's prob
Haven't posted here for a few days, quite a few things going on. Mum has stayed over for a few days and we have been discussing the move. Will be getting the ball rolling shortly. Just need to start packing and writing to a few people. Need to register with new Docs etc when we move too. Mums house a smaller than ours but I thinks we'll do OK. There is so much to do in the local vicinity and lots of well paid jobs too, so we are seeing this as a very positive step now. I just need to do some ext
Well, I've ordered the boxes, should arrive any day now. Need to start measuring up my furniture. Mum has an old and knacked sofa, so we are using our one. We have some very large reclaimed furniture which I am concerned will not fit, a 7ft pine table with big carver chairs and a 7ft dresser - my Mums house isn't that big! We said the table will take up most of the living room. Our bed is this huge king size reclaimed pine sled bed as well. Not sure if we will be able to fit that in. We have a s
Yesterday I received an email from my manager confirming that she had received my resignation and that she was saddened to hear our present circumstances. They are waiving my months notice which is good, one less thing to worry aout. It was a very nice email and I am glad to have parted company on good terms. I really enjoyed working there and made some lovely friends, a couple of whom I still keep in contact with. I do feel a sense of relief that this is one area of my life where I can now thin
Well, just come back from all of my 3 appointments and I am shattered. Dietician couldn't tell me much more than I already know. She thinks the steroids are what is suppressing my weight...contradicts what the endo said...other than that she said I am eating OK, diabetes is under control, could only suggest smaller portion sizes and adding fruit...next appointment with the GP, he wants me to stay off the statin for lowering my cholestoral, it probably doesn't agree with me and he agrees that my
Well, its nearly 8am here, been up for a couple of hours already. Decided to finally get off my bum, go and get my bloods checked (for my diabetic nurse and for the HRT possibility). Also need to see the Doc about various things that are concerning me lately. I have been feeling rough now for a few weeks, probably due to weaning off the hydocortisone and possibly taking the statin for cholestoral. Leg cramps, heart flutters, exhaustion, joint pain, facial plethora, dizzy spells, generally feelin
I dunno where to ask this. I cant pick a board.Im dizzy! Im so dizzy! Its like vertigo. No nausea. Appetite increase which is odd usually its normal. Same amount of steroids 21mgs prednisone. BUt the room is tilting like this see?Worse when i lie down or move my head. I stopped my high Blood pressure meds thought it might be low. Is this is any way a sign of crises? I havent ever had it before. Its just so odd. 4 days now!And no, i dont have a doctor. No, i cant see one for sth as piddly as this
I've been a bit of a strange mood today, feel off sorts, feeling a touch down, tired, and mentally exhausted - I guess its all catching up with me. I've written my resignation letter today. I am sad to have written it but I need to make a fresh start. I can't afford to work in Cambridge. As Steve has started commuting by train, we would have to pay at least ?350 a month in travel costs and that is unacceptable plus childcare costs on top, we just can't do it. I also have Liz's operation on my mi
of fentanyl; hope i dont have to use that again. It works as well actually better than most, but man was i drugged. today im dizzy; like head between my knees dizzy. i think sleeping so long [24hours!!!] might have lowered my blood pressure too much so with the strong meds for that it was too low. i dunno. really i dont. how rare to sleep so much and how lovely. oh i wrote sth, trying to understand how to get back in suck it up mode:When I was in labor, sixteen years ago this August 25, I had an
Oh what a funny old start to the day its been. Its 1:30pm, we've just been to the local park and kicked a ball around, shot some hoops and walked through the woods, it was nice to get some fresh air although Harry got a bit grumpy towards the end, tiredness I guess. Day started off with a funny start. I decided I didn't want to go to the job, I know, I know, I should have gone but 8 hours a week is hardly going to solve any major problems. Steve and I had a good talk and we have decided to file
Please, please save me from my 'Mr Incredible' hell. Got up this morning and Harry has his costume on again and yes he wasnts to watch the film...this is getting obsessive - I think its heading for the trash can...lol!!Phew...that was a close one - the incredibles have had their come uppance and have been replaced by Cats & Dogs...not that much more educationally challenging but still. I think we need some fresh air - its been raining here so is a bit grim outside however I have now register
What a day. I need to get an address for Jinxie for the hug a cushie doll. I havent been posting cause I'm on Fentanyl patch. I didn't want ot depress anyone but ah it's still not taking the pain away. My back. This pain is wearing me down big time. It isn't that it's 10 on a scale of 1-10; cause you know, I think someone having their legs blown off is a 10. Most I've had is a 9 in my life which is writhing on the floor moaning and wishing I were dead pain from my kidney. ANYWAYS it's about a 5
7:25amSlept well last night, grogginess went in the evening so I felt better by the time Steve got home. His train was delayed big time so he got home over an hour late and he was so tired. I spoke to my Mum last night and we had a good chat which made me feel so much better about our financial connection. She is really living beyond her means and I think she was in denial with it but didn't let anyone else know, so there she was lending me money and lavishing us with gifts and spending money sh
I've been feeling a bit out of sorts today. I have reduced my insulin because my blood sugars are doing well and I guess that coupled with going on the cross trainer and stepper yesterday and the continued reduction of hydrocortisone has culminated in a feeling of complete and utter exhaustion. I have still been busy round the house doing chores...I get such itchy feet!! Wish I was one of those people that can happily stick their feet up but I still can't sit around too long without feeling bore
My symptoms seem to be lessoning since my last post. I still get a bit of a wired feeling. I felt it the most when I was tired and we were driving back from Canada. I find that if I get tired I feel sick to my stomach, and basically just weak and no ambition to do anything.My right hand will still swell some, and my left foot, but not that much, maybe once or twice a week. I took grapefruit seed extract to see if I could combat the giardia, if I still have it even? I didn't go back for a
Got back from our vacation to Canada. We left this year on July 18th, My mother-in-law and I drove up and John flew up on Sat/23rd. Marlene and I picked him up at the Wpg Airport. We had a pretty good time. Our last couple years were not that good with me being sickly all the time. This year was a glimpse of better years there!I didn't get to spend time in town with family and friends. We stayed out at Joe's in a small community about 25 KM out of town so it was hard getting in when my tr
Just thought I'd start posting my poems here - sometimes when I feel down or fed up or well you know, I usually write poems to get rid of all my stress...one of the ways to de-stress anyway...Time:Time is a healer, or so I am toldBut as time goes by, the more I feel old.Each day that passes seems bleaker then the last,My future seems dim now, so I live in the past.I can?t see the forward; I am forever looking back,Way over my shoulder, ?cause the ahead just seems black.I just want a light, just
Finally decided to pull out my cross trainer and drag out the stepper. I was thinking of selling the cross trainer but having had a go of it this morning I am opting against it. As I am on cholestoral lowering drugs right now and I have had a few things with my heart that I am not happy with it is finally time to start some 'serious' exercising. I have been good in the sense that I am always moving about and I so quite heavy gardening work as our garden is high maintenance and chasing a 4 year o
Spent most of this morning sorting out things to sell for tomorrows car boot sale (garage or yard sale is the equivelant I guess, not sur eyou have car boot sales in the States, do you?). Anyway, been pricing things up and got a fair bit to sell, hopefully will make a bit of extra cash to pay some more bills off. I am really desperate to get one of the jobs I am being interviewed for, it will mean we can then concentrate on trying to tidy the house up to sell instead of declaring bankruptcy - se
Spent today lazing around with Harry. I have been feeling abit off today, cheeks are burning - that horrible cushings sensation you get when you feel like a squirrel with walnuts stuffed in your cheeks...lol! and my limbs feel very tired too. So have and I made a picnic on my bed. We laid out a picnic blanket and brought all his play cups and saucers and teapots and play food in and four of his teddy bears and had a teddy bears picnic - it has been fun and I so love having this time with him. W
Still feeling the effects of my head injury yesterday...what was I thinking...shame I didn't do that pre-op, could've evicted the little buggar sooner. I've got a lot of things to do this week, We are finally going to admit defeat and go for broke, so I have to contact the housing association and try and see what our rights are. Can't wait to move away and be nearer my family to be honest - it will so good to make a fresh start too. We have been going through all of our junk trying to declutter
